Nearly seventy years ago, I was a young teenager
attending Wimbledon College in south-west London, a State aided Grammar School
for boys run by the Jesuits. Whilst there I had the good fortune to attend a
Retreat for our age group, given by Father Bernard Basset S.J., a much sought
after Retreat Master. I found his talks on the Faith stimulating, clear and
balanced, and sprinkled always with a generous dressing of humour.
Recently
I came across a second-hand, small paper-back book, entitled ‘The Seven Deadly
Virtues and Other Stories’ by Bernard Basset S.J., published by Sands &
Co., which I am reading and thoroughly enjoying.
I
reproduce one of the stories, ‘Orate Fratres’, which I hope that you enjoy as
much as I do.
‘Orate Fratres’
‘The early morning Mass was over. The minute server had extinguished the last
of the very tall candles, and had retired to the sacristy carrying the missal,
the cruets, the altar cards and the extinguisher. He had not dropped anything but he had gone
off rattling like a four wheeler, and the sound of voices in the sacristy led
one to believe that the sacristan had told him not once but a hundred times not
to do that again.
Mrs
Reid liked to hear the voices in the distance.
It made the church seem less empty and it filled up part of the
thanksgiving time. Mind you, she did not
tell herself this in so many words, but it was a fact all the same.
The
church was now very dim and peaceful, and Mrs Reid felt that the moment had
come to get down to her prayers, but much as she loved the Lord she could not
get started. What with the - ‘Jimmy
Mason’ film she had seen yesterday, and the candles all askew on the high
altar, she could neither open nor shut her eyes without distraction. She took
up her missal and glanced hurriedly through it, but it was too much like a
Bradshaw to give her any consolation except on the very biggest and most
straight- forward feasts. Besides it had
a map of the Roman Basilicas at the beginning, and only yesterday she had found
herself on the Appian Way when the Sanctus bell sounded. Mrs Reid shut her missal with a bang.
Her
knees were hurting and so she decided to sit down, but this manoeuvre hurled
her umbrella to the ground. Heavens, how
the rubber band at the top was worn! She
would buy another on the way to the oculist and would also have the button sewn
on properly. Mrs Reid picked it up and
began to roll it up when she suddenly recalled that she was in church.
“Gracious
me, what am I up to?” she whispered, horrified, as she clapped down the
umbrella and picked up her other prayer book.
“Dear Lord, forgive me, what can I say to You?”
She
always brought the other prayer book to church every day though she never knew
why. It was stuffed with holy pictures
and mortuary cards, and one or two less pious objects. There was a bus ticket and a list of
successful candidates for the London
Matriculation. Her boy had passed well
and his name was underlined in red. Last Sunday by mistake she had taken out
the cutting during Benediction, and without thinking had started to read
through all the names.
She
had got down to the Ks when she saw that odious Miss Perkins looking at her
across the aisle. On that occasion she
had audibly whispered a ‘Glory be to the
Father’ and made a Sign of the Cross before putting the cutting away, just to
teach the other not to judge her neighbours, but now she felt it was playing
with fire to get near the Matriculation results again.
So
Mrs Reid fell back on her rosary. She
fished it out from her coat pocket – no, it was in her bag after all, funny –
and settled down to say her beads. She
started correctly but after a few minutes the beads were shooting by too
quickly. Hail Marys cannot be said at
that speed. Mrs Reid pulled herself
up. Where was she, not at the third
mystery already? Why she didn’t remember
whether it was the Joyful or the Glorious.
“Dear
Lord, I’m hopeless,” she said for the hundredth time before going off on to
another distraction.
There
was the Canon kneeling on the other side of the church making his thanksgiving
after Mass. He knelt so still, with
bowed head and joined hands. Never a movement.
Mrs Reid stared at him quite openly.
“Dear
Lord,”” she said, “I’m hopeless at prayer; if only I could pray like the Canon. He is a priest so I suppose it is easier for
him, because they are taught how to pray in the seminaries. I expect he is having a vision at this very
moment. Dear Lord, I am so useless,
can’t I pray like that?”
Mrs
Reid put down her rosary, joined her hands, shut her eyes and tried to pray
like the Canon.
Yes,
the Canon knelt very still, and he kept his eyes shut, but that was because he
had been taught at the seminary that it was not hypocrisy but good example to
look devout even when he did not feel it.
But as he knelt there his mind wandered from the leak in the roof of St
Joseph’s chapel to the Archbishop’s cold, and from the archiepiscopal cold to
the way his server sniffed during Mass.
Really he must summon up courage to tell the boy even if it led to an
attack of sulks and no server for a week.
Perhaps he could ask Mrs Reid to say the responses , she was always
regular in the mornings. The Canon knew
she was here now for he could hear her rosary rattling against the bench.
“Dear
Lord,” said the Canon, “I’m hopeless.
Here I am wandering about thinking of roofs and sniffs when I should be
thanking You for the honour given me each morning of holding in my hands the
living God. Here am I, a useless
shepherd, wasting my time thinking of money and temporal trivialities, while
one of my own parishioners is praying as I ought to be. O Lord, if only I could pray like Mrs
Reid. I’m hopeless.”
The
old Canon fumbled in his pocket and drew out his rosary beads.
And
from on high the Son of God looked down on them with love, for although He now
enjoys eternity, He has not forgotten just how long a quarter of an hour can
be. And just as it is the time and
trouble taken that makes a letter from a friend so welcome, so it is the time
and trouble taken that makes prayer acceptable to God. For prayer is not unlike a letter to a loved
one, beginning with a big Beloved and then skipping from triviality to
triviality till it reaches the triumphant conclusion “Yours very devotedly”. This is what pleases God.’
Ack. ‘The Seven Deadly Virtues, and Other Stories’ by Rev
Bernard Bassett S.J. (published by Sands & Co. – with permission to publish
in book form from Stella
Maris and Southwark Record in
which they first appeared.)
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